i'll have another slice
of pizza
because as long as
i've got this awesome pot belly
no one will notice
the bump in my nose
it's hard
to send postcards home
when i'm already here
my mom
believes everything the news tells her
thinks the cleaning lady was eyeing her
is insulted by my dinosaur drawings
makes friends with the people
who have become shells
but not quite
and i hope
this is the only thing
i've inherited
What is your deepest, darkest fear?
Submitted by [Susan].
Well my first instinct is to answer with all the big fears I have. Being a horrible mother and messing my kids up, being in love with someone and them not loving me back, finding out that the person... "the one"... doesn't really exist, or any number of other fears. None of those though are my deepest darkest fear.
After really thinking about it... My deepest darkest fear is to have someone know all my secrets. Not just any secrets. The secrets that are at my core. The secrets that I vowed to myself that I would take to the grave. They are the things that have the power to change what people think of me. They are the things that will show them who I really am deep down.
Because I am bored and uninspired I will steal a meme.
What highway do you drive on the most? I-65
What would be your dream car? I would sell my soul for an old Jeep. I don't want a shiny new one I want an old one.
Would you consider yourself a flirt? Who? lil' ol' me...really though I am a huge, huge flirt.
What are your sibling’s middle names? Lynn, Allen,Scott, and Jay
What's a song/group that puts you in the mood to dance or party? Well there are a lot that do, but I currently just finished dancing around my livingroom to Garbage and Marilyn Manson.
Where are you going on your next vacation? I had vacation planned, but it looks like, due to my monetary deficiencies I will not be going anywhere. *sigh*
Do you get paid weekly or bi-weekly? Bi-weekly.
What color are your pillows? I don't sleep with a pillow.
Favorite aunts name? I don't have a favorite aunt. I am not close to anyone in my family.
What hours do you work? I go in at 4 or 5 am and I leave anywhere from 1 to 3 pm.
Are you superstitious? Not really.
Whose motorcycle were you last on? My brother's, years ago when he was teaching me to drive it.
You have to buy the perfect shirt to wear tonight, where do you go? Target, because I have their credit card, they have awesome clearance and I get an employee discount.
How many calendars are in your house? One on the fridge.
Have you ever been confused over two relationships at once? Yeah, after I got divorced I started dating to soon and it got messy. I didn't know from day to day who I wanted to be with.
Who is the last person that made you laugh in person? My therapist probably, he is the only person I know with a decent sense of humor.
Name one of your ex's mother's names? Emma
Do you miss high school? Hell no, I hated it.
What color is your bra? Black.
How many pairs of sneakers do you own? One for the gym...look at me answer that like I actually go to the gym.
What kind of lotion is closest to you? my daughter's sugar cookie lotion is sitting right here.
What's on tv this second? no idea, I am not near a tv.
What helps you sleep? Depends on why I can't sleep.
How much would you get if you traded your car in? I would probably get laughed at
What color shirt did your mom wear today? Not a clue, I have never been accused of being very observant.
Last time you saw your dad? July 2003. He died about a week later.
Last time you babysat? When I was 14 or 15
Next dentist/gyno/doctor appt? Dentist/next week, Gyno/ next month, Dr. /Two weeks
How often do you do laundry? Pretty randomly, just whenever it needs done
Have you ever been prescribed narcotics? Why yes I have
Have you ever copied someone's tests? Once in middle school but the girl caught me and I was so embarresed I thought I was going to die.
What’s hummus made of? Chick peas and seasonings which depend on what you want it to taste like. I use red pepper and lemon juice.
When is the last time you used a slip and slide? Last summer
What’s annoying you right now? I have no way to get the pictures from my cell phone and digital camera onto the computer, because this computer sucks ass.
Do you have a crush on someone from the workplace? not really
Are you an introvert or extrovert? It depends on where I am. I am usually very outgoing, but if it is someone that I want to make a good impression on I tend to be really quite and shy.
When is your grandma’s birthday? June 14. Honestly the only reason I know is because it is two days before mine.
Do you take birth control? No, but I haven't had sex in....counts on fingers....a year and 8 months, so I think I am safe.
How many rings do you wear daily? none usually
Any tattoos? three at the moment, but as soon as I have the money I am getting one more and then I am done.
Any peicings? my ears twice , my belly button and my nose.
Name 3 people you worked with today?No one, I hung out at home
Plans for today/tonight? None, today exhausted me I just want to veg out tonight.
Plans for the weekend? I have got to get my house cleaned up for my daughters' birthdays and go get all their presents and stuff for their parties.
A pan handler clown on the streets of Berkeley. I gave him a couple of bucks to take this shot and one of his friend.
My ex-husband gave me $100.00. I know you all are thinking big whoop. Seriously though, this is gigantic. A little background. We split up in 2002. When we split up he stayed in pretty close contact with the kids for almost a year. He saw them regularly. Then he decided he missed out on something in life and took off. He didn't tell the kids bye or anything. He went a year and a half without so much as a phone call a letter anything to the kids. Then he called them out of the blue and for the next couple years he called them about every 5-6 months and he even sent them a card once for easter. Then in 2006 I finally tracked him down and got his checks garnished to get child support. I hadn't talked to him since 2004 (when he calls even now the kids answer the phone). Anywhooo...having to pay ticked him off and he vanished again. Until....I got his yahoo IM and I added him to my kids' yahoos and then he started talking to them on there. He still doesn't call unless they ask him to and he hasn't seen them in 5 years, but he is at least talking to them in some form. I now talk to him every once in awhile on IM. I will not fight with him so I am mostly listening to him complain about having to pay child support and listen to his delusions of what a great father he really is. So anyway...today I told him what we did for my son's birthday party. I told him they had fun and wanted to go again next week for my daughter's birthdays. We didn't talk about money or cost ot anything like that. He paypaled me $100.00. Seriously, this is a guy who makes over a hundred thousand a year and pays child support based on his ability to earn twenty five thousand a year and he hates me for even making him pay that. This is a guy who is supposed to pay half of medical, but I have never seen a penny of that, this is a guy who keeps all his assets and accounts in other people's names so you can't prove what he makes....and he voluntarily gave me a hundred bucks that I didn't ask for. I figured that wasn't the best time to point out that it actually costed us almost three hundred to go the other day.:-)
We just got back from the park. There was a guy there that was just straight up creepy. Seriously as soon as we pulled up I saw him and my freak-o-meter went off. I let my kids out to play and told them not to talk to the guy. He had a camera and was taking a picture of some girl (she was about 18-19 years old). I never took my eyes off him. He finished taking the girls picture and she left. So he starts walking toward my daughter and I was like hell no your not going to talk to her, so I started to get up to go over to where she was, but he got there first and said something to her. She came running over and said he wanted to take her picture. He was watching me the whole time she was asking. I told her no he couldn't and that a grown man doesn't need to take her picture.He saw me telling her no. So I sent her the other direction to play and stressed to not talk to him. Then he walks up and asks me if I have an email address. I said yeah. He said he could take pictures of both my daughters (my son apparently wasn't his thing) and email them to me. I glared at him and pretty much told him off. He got uncomfortable (could have been the I hope you burn in hell look I gave him) and tried to make small talk for a second and then went and sat in his car and I stood there and watched him. I must have made him nervous, because then he left. I was thinking though that I should have got his license plate number because he had a big van with tinted windows and out of state plates and the whole thing was just really freaking creepy. The guy was a slime ball too, really homely and dirty and he was using crutches, except that he wasn't really using them at all.I didn't think about the plates until he was already leaving and I couldn't read them.
